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1999-10-27 | 18:03:19

» stammering

I wish I could explain what it's like to begin to move away from depression and into the manic side of things.

T.S. Eliot, in "The Lovesong of J. Alfred Prufrock," wrote:

"It is impossible to say just what I mean!
 But as if a magic lantern threw the nerves
            in patterns on a screen..."

Eliot spent a good deal of time in a Swiss sanitorium for his 'nerves.'

I really only mention this because my mind is running so furiously right now on so many topics that I needed something to concentrate on. Does that make sense?

This is so frustrating. I'm shaking as I write this because I can barely string two thoughts together and get them to sit still long enough to type them out.

OK. I'll to do this later. Maybe I'm just forcing myself to write when I don't have anything to say. Yeah, maybe that's it. Maybe there's no problem at all... ha.